After struggling about whether to spend the additional money to make the trek back to Boston, I last left off deciding that I was going to go for it. The plan was to run a slower pace than normal and nurse my legs to the finish. I knew it was going to be one of the hardest marathons I have run in the 35 or so that I have entered just given the mental and physical strain related to my hammies and the severe lack of training that I had been able to do over the last 10 months. But my mind had been made up, I was going to do it. Whether my body would allow it is another question.
|Old North Church|
|Stayed at The Bostonian again|
Saturday, we hit the Expo and then I caught the end of the Team Nuun tag up. I wish I could have made it earlier to the Nuun event, but the lines at the expo were ridiculous this year. One great thing was that when we first got in line, Shalane Flanagan was standing right there!! I was waiting to get a pic with her, next to another guy, when that other guy turned to me and said "Hi." My response: "Hey, Ryan!" Guys, I was standing right beside Ryan Hall! He talked with me a little and I was able to get my pic with Ryan and Shalane! How cool!
While we were there, we had to hit the finish line for some photo ops also. My kids and I reproduced our pic from previous Bostons. It has become something we just have to do! I love my family, did I ever tell you that?
Here is a little tidbit before I get to marathon day. On Saturday morning, I went out for a little shakeout run. I always run from the hotel, through the Commons and down to the finish line, and this year was no different. I ran a couple blocks past the finish line and then turned around to go back. I did not expect what happened next. When I turned around to head back I saw the finish line structure and *everything* about 2013 came flooding back. Tears instantly came to my eyes. I probably looked like an idiot out there tearing up and it wasn't even the finish of the marathon yet. While I think about 2013 quite often, I never expected it to hit me like a sledgehammer like it did. To make matters worse, they were holding a service at the site of the first bomb and the Boston PD started playing bagpipes. Jeez!!! My insides were jelly. I knew then that this was going to be hard, but that I needed to do everything I could to get to that finish line on Monday. That's right when I saw Kevin Rutherford, the Nuun CEO. I went over and talked with him a little before heading back to the hotel and that calmed me back down a bit.
|My boys, Daniel and Tim|
Here's the neat thing about pre-race. After waiting several hours, it was time to make the walk to the starting corrals. When I got there, about 20 minutes before my start time, I looked over at the Korean Church that houses the elite athletes prior to their start. Stretched across the front steps of the church, they had a banner telling the runners good luck. On that banner, they had placed Isaiah 40:31, my favorite verse, and part of the verse was written out, including "...will run and not grow weary." When I saw that, it was as if God immediately took away all of my stress, all of my worries, all of my negative thoughts, and replaced it all with calming peace. I am sure that banner was not there for just me, but at that moment, it was. It might as well have said "Don't worry, Jim. I am here."
Bang! We were off. I started off a little faster than I wanted due to the downhill first couple of miles, but I knew that would be okay. I can't say that I felt good though. Essentially, my quads were not feeling well from the first step. So tired feeling. At Mile 4, my legs were already feeling like they start feeling at about mile 21 in a normal marathon when I have had good training coming in. This was not going to be easy....
One of the things I wanted to do this Boston was try to take everything in as much as I could. I had even taken my phone so I could try to get some pictures as I ran so I could share them with my family and friends. I have talked about the course so much, I wanted to share some of it. Let me say one thing here: taking pictures and videos while running a marathon is way harder than I was thinking. I didn't get as many pictures as I wanted to due to this, so sorry to those wanting more. About half way through, I decided that every once in a while, I was going to stop and ask a spectator to take my picture so that I could get the other runners or other sites behind me while I spread my arms as if to take it all in. I wish I would have thought of this earlier as I would have done this at the start. I wish I had a picture of that banner at the church in Hopkinton!!
So, back to the race. I was at about mile 9 and my current thought was, "How am I going to make it 17 more miles...." At that point, I tried to replace those thoughts with two things: 1) I knew Nuun had a tent somewhere between miles 17 and 18 and I just had to make it to them, and 2) My family was waiting for me at the turn onto Boylston and I could not let them down.
On I trudged....
The miles started to go by quicker even though my pace was slowing some. I did realize that the little breaks I took fumbling with my phone to get some pics or videos gave me enough of a break from concentrating on the run to realize I could make it the next couple of miles, and that cycle continued...
Mile 17 approached and I started looking for that Nuun tent. I made a pit stop at a medical tent to get some moleskin for a toe that was starting to bother me and then continued on, sweeping the sides of the course for that tent. I passed where I thought it would be and started to worry that somehow I had missed it. I will say one thing - if I had indeed missed it, I think I would have dropped out of the race sometime soon after that. Honestly.
About that time, I saw a blue tent to the left of the course and I saw the Nuun "N". Relief immediately swept over me. I stopped, trying to smile, but likely not being too successful at it. I asked them to refill my bottle I had been carrying with more Nuun Performance, which they did so without question. For those that don't know, Performance is their new product for endurance events and it saved my butt this race with the temps. I was worried about my legs and my hammies, but not once was I worried about my hydration or fuel since I carried Performance the whole way along with my Gu. To all of you at the Nuun tent: THANK YOU!!! You literally saved my day at that point in time. Jason, one of the Nuun folks there, was a smiling face of peace when I needed it most. I spoke with him a little while I waited for my bottle of performance goodness and it was just what I needed to talk me off the ledge. Once I had my bottle, it was back to the miles.
For the last 9 miles, it was periods of taking water cups and dumping them on my head, stopping every so often for a pic, and thinking about nothing more than getting to see my family. I just had to get there, not only for myself, but for them.
Seeing the Citgo sign in the distance, which marks around the 1 mile to go mark, was one of the greatest sites I had seen while running Boston besides seeing the finish line itself. At that point, I was certain I was going to cross the finish line; it might be by walking, but I was going to make it, and I was ecstatic.
After some more trudging, there it was. The right onto Hereford, the slight uphill to my family, then the left onto Boylston and the run down to the greatest finish line I have had the pleasure of crossing.
I found my family and ran over to give them my bottle before I went down the finish stretch. My daughter later made the comment that this was the only time I have come by them at Boston with a smile. She was right; I had a big, goofy grin because my last 5 months of pain, stress, worrying were gone and I was finishing my 5th Boston!!!
What have I learned from this:
- Patience is indeed a virtue. It took patience for me to decide to run. It took patience to get to the starting line. And it took patience to get to that finish
- Take it in. I enjoyed taking pictures along the way and talking to some of the spectators. I wasn't worried about the 5-6 minutes of time I probably lost in doing this.
- You can do more than you think. When it comes down to it, your body is amazing. It will do what is needed when you ask it to. Don't doubt it.
Thanks to everyone for putting up with my complaining along the way. Thanks for being a sounding board. Thanks for being that support. Maybe you got something out of my journey that will help you in some struggle or unexpected life situation that you are facing or will face in the future.
It was personal, and I warned you Boston, that I was coming! You threw your best at me, and I was able to take it. You have once again taught me that, even at age 49, I am stronger than I think.